YOU WERE SO GOOD TO ME & I HURT YOU 😭 YOU DIDN'T DESERVE IT 😥 I'M SORRY (COLLECTIVE LOVE READING) 🔮 transcript

Hi everyone, welcome to your love tarot card reading. This is a timeless love reading for the collective. Not all of the messages that come through during this love reading today will apply to everyone watching. So please only take in from this reading those messages that speak to your soul and the ones that resonate for you and for your situation. And just release the rest to the universe. I know it must have been devastating for you to watch me sabotage our future and not be able to stop me.

And how many of you that are watching this reading today on Crystal Vision 11:11 have had this experience? Probably so many of you this does ring true very loud and clear that your person was sabotaging this relationship. And someone who sabotages a relationship does so because they don't believe that they're good enough. They don't believe that they're worthy. They feel that something is going to happen and so rather than wait it out and see if the shoe is going to drop or the curtain's going to fall, they create the problems themselves.

And when someone self-sabotages relationships, you can be rest assured that they are going to be sabotaging other areas of their lives as well. It's almost like it's something that's ingrained in them. These feelings of not being worthy, of not being in the place where they should receive good things, where they could have happiness and love in their life. And so rather than wait for something bad to happen, what does this person do?

Sabotage. Take this connection down that path of self-destruction, destructing it themselves because their belief is it's going to destruct anyway, so I might as well just push it along. How very silly all of that is and that is what this person realizes now because in doing so, they see how very much they hurt you. They hurt this connection. And through all of that as well, they're hurting themselves. This person knows that you did not deserve to be treated the way they treated you.

And that is something that they carry so much regret and guilt for within because they do see now that there is a different way, that there is a better approach to just come to you and talk to you and share everything with you about all the reasons why they were sabotaging this relationship. Perhaps for some of you, you already know those reasons why. For many of you, you don't. But that is something that you could work through together.

And that is what your person realizes now. If I had only if I had only if I had only. Oh, yes. But moving forward, they're going to do things so very differently. I acted like a child and just kept making the same mistakes over and over again. Well, yes. And I do feel as well that this statement rings very true for most of you that are listening to this reading. Your person knows that they were stuck in that place of immaturity, that they were stuck in that place of low vibration behaviors, attitudes, actions, that they did bring toxic and dysfunctional junk into this connection.

Of course, because they were on that path of self-destruction and self-sabotage, because they did not believe themselves to be worthy of you and of this connection. And you, you guys watching the reading. You were so good to them. And that is why they feel so horrible for how they treated you. It's why they are just filled with shame, so much remorse, so much guilt. Spending a lot of time though in self-reflection, they are able to see what they must do differently to to you back in their life.

Growing up, of course, is going to be the very first thing that is happening for your person, and that is something they have been working on during the time that you are in this disconnected space from each other, because they don't want to bring those big, huge, epic mistakes and problems and self-sabotaging behaviors back into this connection with you. No. It's going to be a different relationship moving forward. One where there is equal give and take.

One where there is love, understanding, and compromise. One where there is adult conversations and so much better communication as well for the two of you, and that is going to make such a huge difference, a very positive one, for this connection. I know you tried to be the bigger person and do whatever you could to make things better. And yes, again, this rings true for all of you that are watching this reading. You always take the high road.

You tried to show this person a better way. You tried to allow them to see that they could have a better life, a happier life, a peaceful life without conflict, chaos, turmoil. By releasing all of those things from their past that have been a very heavy weight and a very heavy of a heavy burden for them to be carrying around for so long. And that is what caused all of this sabotage to begin with. Their past experiences before you came into their life.

And they see that they should have given all of that stuff the heave-ho before the two of you started spending time together, because it would have made sure that they did not make those same mistakes over and over again. You were good to this person. You were kind, nurturing, giving, caring, supportive, understanding. And now they see how they have hurt you. They see how you have always been so very good to them. There goes the motorcycle guys, if anyone resonates with motorcycles, yes.

And you always did whatever you could to make things better. You picked up the slack when this person started slacking off. You took care of things when they stopped taking care of things or when they wouldn't. You lifted them up. You showed them compassion, understanding. You tried to show them that they could live the best life if they just released their burdens from the past. And they weren't willing to do that then when the two of you were spending time together, but well, oh my goodness, they are doing it now because they want to live a better life.

They want a happier life, a lighter and brighter life with you. You always make things better for this person. And how they wish at the moment that they could just reach out and talk to you to make things better within them right now, but they know that they can't do that. They know that they need to work through these issues and come back to you healed. Healed and ready to love you in all of those ways that you have loved them.

But let's see what else is coming in for this love reading today, please. I'm sorry for leaving you in the dark. It must have hurt and angered you. Oh, well, yes, so very much. Leaving you in the dark. You not knowing what happened to this person. And I know for so many of you, again, that rings true because for many of you this person just disappeared. They pulled a runner. They did not have a breakup conversation with you.

They just vanished into the woodwork and then went silent, sticking their head in the sand like a ostrich, becoming a ghost then, and just leaving it in this place of silence and confusion for you. Not just the dark, but confusion. You feeling completely bewildered, especially because more than likely you had plans with this person for future events, for future dates, for future excursions. Perhaps you had a trip planned to go away together somewhere for a weekend or longer.

Perhaps you had concert tickets to attend concerts in the future or you had reservations to some restaurants or other places that you like to go to and they still just poof, poof became the disappearing person. Yes. Leaving you in the dark with no explanation. And you know what? I'm just going to say it because it really just makes me so upset. That is one of the cruelest things to do to somebody. Especially somebody that you care about.

Have a conversation. Give them an explanation. Tell them what is about to happen. And for more than likely and more than likely you guys watching the reading, you could probably sense perhaps that something was about to happen, that this person was getting ready to pull a runner. They were retreating their energy from you. They weren't as communicative. They weren't spending as much time with you. And all those and although those can be very subtle hints, they still register in our psyche.

Especially because you have this powerful connection to your person. You could tell when the flow of energy was shifting away from you. It can be very subtle, but you can still pick it up. You can feel it. And perhaps you could sense that this person was getting ready to pull a runner and disappear. Regardless of whether they left abruptly, regardless of whether they pulled a runner or slowly retreated their energy, leaving you in the dark was cruel and a horrible thing to do.

And yes, it hurt you at first, and then it probably made you angry, and then it went back to hurt. Oh, this person knows that they've hurt you. They know that they need to make amends. They know that they need to apologize because I feel that they are sitting in this place where they are filled with so much shame and regret for what they've done, for how they've acted, for everything that they did that was so hurtful.

Have a conversation. Of course, that conversation is going to be a difficult conversation. We need to take a break. This is too overwhelming for me right now. I am trying to understand what is happening because this doesn't make sense. I need to go off for a little while and find myself. Whatever this person could have said to you, it would have been better, although hurtful, than them just disappearing and leaving you in the dark.

Because when you are left in the dark with that rude, abrupt disconnect, it leaves you reeling, causing a downward spiral, causing a dark night of the soul perhaps for so many of you as well. And you did not deserve that. And well, your person knows this as well. And they know that you probably fluctuate somewhere between hurt, anger, and love for them. They are just hoping that they're going to pick up on that love part when you are in that place of loving them and wanting them to return because they are coming back to make amends.

But yes, they know that they should have had adult conversations with you, which is why this time away from each other, that becoming emotionally mature and emotionally responsible is so important so that you can have adult conversations about emotions and feelings and being completely transparent with each other. I am grateful for your patience, wisdom, kindness, and compassion. Yes, you were so good to this person.

You have been kind, gracious, considerate, wise, compassionate, understanding, loving, nurturing, supportive, inspirational, devoted, determined. You have been all of those things for this person. You have shown them your love. And they are grateful for it. They are just hoping that they have not completely destroyed your compassion, your kindness, or your patience. They also know that they're testing your patience by taking as long as they are taking to get their act together to return to you.

But they do feel that fire burning beneath them and within them, pushing them and urging them forward to get on this return journey to you because they want to reconnect with you. They want to reconnect to this wisdom, kindness, compassion, understanding, inspiration. But most of all, they want to reconnect to this love that is here between you because you have allowed this person to see what love truly is all about.

I feel a time has come for me to step up, behave like an adult, and address my thoughts and feelings. Well, hallelujah for that, yes. Let's get [clears throat] a big old amen up in here. Behave like an adult. Yes, amen to that. If they'd only been behaving like an adult to begin with, things would be very different. You wouldn't be in the dark. They wouldn't have sabotaged this relationship. They wouldn't have acted like a child.

Things would be very different between you, and you would have a lot deeper of what was going on with your person when things were happening within them. If they'd only shared all of that, if they'd only been transparent, if they'd only been vulnerable, if they were only willing to allow you into the core of who they were back then. But, all of this is going to be remedied when this person comes back because they will share everything with you.

They will allow you into the core of who they are because they understand that that is how you build trust. And trust is something they know that they're going to have to earn back from you. And it's going to take them a lot of effort to do that. But, they will make it happen because they want to address all of their deepest thoughts, emotions, and feelings with you. But, let's use some tarot now and see what else. I think the tarot portion of this reading today, guys, could be very interesting.

So, let's see what spirit wants to share, what a collective, what do we need to hear? And this is the world. Well, this person wants to start over. They do want to begin again. It is going to be a better relationship this next time as well because they have learned so much about themselves during the time that you've been apart, about their actions, about their behaviors, about why they were childish, about why they were immature, about why they were selfish and stubborn and full of pride and ego.

They have figured a lot of these things out because they don't want to make those mistakes again, and they certainly don't want to sabotage this relationship. But, the world tells us that we are coming to the end of a current phase, the phase that you are in right now. The world is getting to the end of this chapter so that you can begin the next one with your person where you are together, where you are reuniting, where you are doing all of those wonderful things together that you did before, but also a lot more things together as well.

But, let's see what else is coming in for this love reading today, please. Temperance. Patience. Patience comes through with Temperance today. Oh, you have been so very patient with your person. Yes, you have. And you took on that life lesson in patience for this lifetime. And you know, guys, excuse me, I've said it before, I'll say it again. Patience is a very difficult life lesson. Because of the world that we live in where everything is at our fingertips, we can have something delivered to our home in a matter of hours or less if you pay an extra $4.99 delivery charge.

Yes, I know that cuz I just ordered something. But, yes, patience, kindness, unconditional love. This is part of this connection that you share with your person. And you should be very proud of yourselves for taking on these very difficult life lessons because they are. And you are getting them, and you are doing it so much better than you even realize. So, give yourself a hug and treat yourself to something special is what's coming through from spirit.

But, Temperance is about this connection. You travel with this person through so many lifetimes just down this little path here going through all of these lives together. Temperance is about the union of divine feminine and divine masculine. The Temperance angel blends those two cups together. One is you, one is your person. But, Temperance is also about listening to divine guidance and wisdom and paying attention to signs, synchronicities, dreams, downloads, songs, anything and everything that your person is being bombarded with at the moment, they are listening.

Thoughts and ideas just pop into their head out of nowhere, but it's not really out of nowhere, is it? No. Those are the universe speaking directly to your person just like they talk to you. And your person's paying attention. There is divine intervention happening at all times for you and your person to bring you together in this 3D space so that you can unite with each other. Temperance is ruled by Sagittarius. You don't have to be any of the signs that I mentioned, nor does your person.

This reading is for all signs, and it's more important anyway that you take in the messages that speak to your soul, and just release the ones that don't. But what I'm really hearing coming in from spirit today is that your person is acknowledging that you were so good to them. And they hurt you. And you didn't deserve it. And they are so very sorry. And they truly feel so guilt guilty. They feel so ashamed. They feel so wretched within themselves for their actions and behaviors, and it's something that sits really heavy within them all the time.

I feel they may even be praying a lot more than usual now as well with this Temperance card being here. But let's see what else is coming in. What do we need to hear? And this is the Queen of Cups. Well, this person loves you. Queen of Cups is all about love. The Queen of Cups is the ruler of the emotional realm. Romance, love, feelings, the intuition that you share with each other, this powerful empathy and telepathy that you share with one another as well comes with the Queen of Cups.

But, it is about you. It is about how loving, nurturing, kind, caring, supportive you are. It is about your wisdom, your compassion, your patience, your unwavering love and support. It is about how you have inspired and motivated and lifted them up in all things. Being the voice of reason, showing them a better way, being a greater listener than they've ever had in their life before. Because you are indeed a good listener.

They do miss your wisdom. They miss your advice. They miss just being able to tell you about their day. Whether it was good, whether it was bad, whether it was somewhere in the middle of all of that. Because you always listened with interest, and not fake interest. You were always interested in what this person has going on in their life. And now they find themselves sitting alone with tears, sorrow, and sadness. Because of their actions and behaviors.

The Queen of Cups is a water sign. That is Pisces, Cancer, and Scorpio. But, what else is coming in for this love reading today, please? The Queen of Swords. Oh my goodness. This is an interesting combination of cards across the bottom for the tarot portion of the reading. Oh, yes, it is. The Queen of Swords, well, it's time for truth talk. It's time for great revelations. It's time for your person to reveal to you how much they love you, how much they care about you.

Yes, their thoughts and feelings are going to come pouring out of them. Like the dam breaking and all of that water, all of that emotion just pouring, gushing all over you. But, as well, the Queen of Swords tells us your person sits in judgment of themselves. Because their truth is a harsh one. Their truth is that they've made a big huge mess between the two of you. Their truth is that you were so good to them and they hurt you and you did not deserve it.

And they are truly devastated when they think about all of it. All of those times they pushed you away, they ran away from you, they shut you down, they disappeared on you, they argued with you, they sabotaged this relationship, they were hot and cold, they were on and off, they sent you mixed messages and mixed signals to confuse you, to kind of keep their emotions in check but yet you still love them. So yes, their reality is a harsh one.

Their reality is they have screwed this up between the two of you and now they regret it and they wish they'd done things differently, but they can't go back in time. No. All they can do is show up and speak the truth and let that truth come pouring out of them. Respect comes with the Queen of Swords as well. The person knows that they were so disrespectful to you. Another one of their many regrets. This is also about being fair.

It is about reciprocity. It is about equal give and take, very much like the Justice card. Your person knows that they need to give back so much to you because you have given them everything. You gave them your all. You gave to them when you had nothing left to give because of your love. Because you are good to them. And now they sit where they reflect upon their life without you and they realize that they have lost the greatest love by pushing you away, by denying this connection, by abandoning you, by pretending they don't care, by sabotaging this relationship, by allowing all of their old clutter, all of their old wounds, and unhealed traumas and dramas to keep negatively affecting the best part of their lives, which is you and this connection.

Well, they see that now. Hallelujah for that. Yes, another big huge amen up in here. The Queen of Swords is an air sign. That is Libra, Gemini, and Aquarius. Let's see what else is coming in, please. What is spirit sharing with the collective? And this is the Eight of Pentacles. What a perfect, absolutely perfect card to get right now. Oh, yes, indeed. That is the universe at work in this reading for you guys today because that is just perfect.

Just beautiful. Guess who's learning their lessons. Oh, they have definitely learned them the hard way. They could have done this so much easier. All they had to do was have conversations with you. All they had to do was talk to you about what they were feeling, why they were trying to sabotage this relationship. When you tried to stop them from sabotaging, they should have had conversations with you then. Perhaps for some of you they did.

For most of you they did not. You tried to show this person a different way of being, a different way of living. Well, they're paying attention to all of that now because they're getting their act together. The Eight of Coins is about self-improvement. And what has your person needed to improve? They needed to stop the self-sabotage. They needed to stop going down those paths of self-destruction. They needed to heal those fears.

They needed to release their insecurities. They needed to heal their emotional traumas and dramas from the past. They needed to grow up. They needed to become more mature and emotionally responsible so they don't make the same mistakes again. They need to not be playing those relationship games with you, in and out of your life, hot and cold, one foot in, one foot out. They need to be patient, wise, kind, and compassionate.

They need to express their gratitude and appreciation for everything that you have done, for everything that you have been for this person. That is why the Eight of Pentacles is so important because that is how they are coming back, grown-up, mature, but also being able to tell you and show you how they feel about you. But let's see what else is coming in for this love reading today, please. What is spirit sharing with the collective?

This is the Moon. The Moon is a card of melancholy. It is a card of longing. It is a card of sadness. And I do feel that your person is very sad. They're melancholy without you. Yes, they are. That Moon is about your person yearning for you and craving you and having this hunger for you and needing to reconnect with you. But it also tells us your person had a whole lot of stuff going on in their subconscious. And that is where we store things, right?

In our subconscious. Because we don't want to deal with it. We don't want to address it. All of those things that happened to me 20 years ago, I am not going to address those things. I am just going to stuff them down and not think about them. Well, stuffing them down for 20 years, they're going to come out one way or another. They are going to come out either by you healing them and dealing with them and releasing them, or they are going to come out by low vibration actions and behaviors, by being childish and immature, by acting out, by self-sabotage, because you have been carrying that junk around for 20 years, and that is what has happened for most of you with this person.

Well, it's time to heal it. That Eight of Pentacles tells us that they are dealing with it, but let's see what else is coming in. For this love reading today, please, what do we need to hear? Well, the Six of Cups. Well, that doesn't surprise me at all. Your person thinking about you all the time with the Six of Cups, reliving replaying conversations, reliving adventures, reliving romantic moments, really wishing that they could reconnect with you, wanting to do things right, wanting to get things right, spending a lot of time in that place where they think what they should have done, what they could have done.

If I only wasn't sabotaging this relationship, if I only was not immature, if I had acted like an adult instead of acting out, oh, things would be so different. And I wouldn't be in this place of melancholy, depression, and loneliness without you, because we would be able to be together. But the Six of Cups is also the return of someone from the past to your life. And this would be your person coming back to have this opportunity to reconcile with you, because they do want to show up and get it right and make it right.

They want to make amends. Only this time they're bringing love, kindness, understanding, compassion. They are bringing devotion and emotion. They are bringing respect, honesty, being trustworthy all back into this connection with you because all of those things need to be here. They have figured that out. They have learned that during the time that you've been apart. Now we have guilt. Yes, your person feels a lot of guilt.

Absolutely they do. And an apology. This person is going to apologize because I feel that guilt is just eating away at them all the time. You can't carry that guilt around forever and continue to be okay. Again, like the moon, unless you apologize, it is going to come up and out one way or another. So yes, this person is going to apologize because they do feel ashamed. They do feel remorseful for how they acted. And that guilt and that regret is something that they carry every day and they have to look at themselves in the mirror in the morning when they're getting ready or throughout the day or when they're going to sleep and they do not like that reflection that stares back at them.

Because they have to acknowledge as they sheepishly look at themselves in that reflection that they did this, that they hurt you, and that they brought so much so much devastation into your life as well. But let's see what else is coming for this love reading today, please. Hiding their true feelings. Well, deep emotions. Yes, this person has deep emotions for you. That is the Queen of Cups, the Queen of Swords and they can't hide their truth from you anymore.

They know that this chemistry the two of you share is the most powerful, the most magical thing they've ever experienced. That goes without saying. It has always been intense between the two of you, and it's not just because of that physical attraction. It goes so much deeper than that. It's the love. It's this spiritual bond. It's these past lives that you have shared with each other as well. And now they're not going to be hiding their true feelings from you anymore because with this Queen of Swords, they get ready to show up and speak their truth.

But, secretly in love, cold and detached. How many of you experienced that? From your person. Trying to hide how they were really feeling. Oh, I'm just going to be cold and detached today. I'm just going to sabotage this relationship. I'm going to allow the self-destruction to continue because I don't want you to know how I really feel about you. So much wasted energy. When the two of you could have been loving each other and going places and doing things and planning a future.

But, this time of healing is so important. This time of growing up has been so important for your person as well because their emotions are going to come out of them the way that they need to when they start coming back to you. The floodgate of emotion actually. Oh, but yes, they know they were childish. Oh, yes, indeed. Six of Cups is also about children. So, yes, they could be childish. They could even be dealing with a wounded inner child with the Six of Cups, with this card as well.

Wounded inner child is a tough thing, guys. So many people have them. And it is something that we have to address. But again, are we going to deal with it? Are are we going to address it, or are we going to shove it down into our subconscious and pretend those things didn't happen? >> [sighs] >> So, I'm sure many of you that are watching this reading have done that work. It's shadow work. It is difficult to look within and dig really deep and address those things, but you have been doing it.

They have been doing it. But they also realized that they can't be argumentative anymore. Creating arguments for no reason, turning that around and blaming that on you. That is a self-sabotaging exercise, isn't it? Yes, it is. No more playing the victim. Another self-sabotage exercise. No more making excuses. Your person being real and authentic and acting with integrity, speaking their truth always. Moving forward, the Queen of Swords carries the sword of truth.

So, yes, your person's reality has been a big, huge, powerful epiphany experience for them or series of epiphany experiences for them. But no more staying in that victim mentality. No, no more because your person wants to be responsible and accountable. They want to be the reliable person just like you have always been for them. So, no more of those childish games, no more of that creating arguments for no reason. No more being stuck in that victim mentality.

No more self-sabotage, either. Thinking of you. Well, yes, they are thinking about you. That is part of that Queen of Swords as well. You are on their mind. Romance is on their mind. Love is on their mind, especially with you being on their mind. But they are missing you. Crying, that goes with the moon card. Nostalgia goes with that Six of Cups. Yes, so you are on this person's mind. And they are thinking about you.

And they are sad without you. But as well, they feel guilty. They feel regret. They feel ashamed. For hurting you as much as they did because you did not deserve it. And now they're in this place where they need to apologize, where they need to come clean, where they need to reveal everything to you. This is your reading for today, everyone. Thank you all so much for watching. If you enjoyed this reading, please take a moment to like, comment, and subscribe to the channel.

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